I find it amusing how I seem to be so unnaturally aware of how Life ain't a TV show when I'm all about TV

My mind is a scary place. It comforts me and it calms me down but it also makes me question my rationality. I check my self so much, afraid of wreaking myself. But what I perceive may not be what is real, or what someone else sees and that scares me. My dreams give me pause in the morning because I don't know what they mean and the possible meanings behind them scare me. My mind sees through double, no, triple looking glasses till I'm tired and confused.

Am I losing my mind?