Quote from http://thelesbianlifestyle.blogspot.com/
"What they don't see is the painful process of self-doubt, self-hatred, and alienation, and when you've come to terms with those yourself, realizing that you will never be "normal", that no matter where you go, you will never feel completely safe."
hm. topic have been in my mind for quite some time now. Really, i never felt 'self-doubt, self-hatred, and alienation' but rather, i feel very annoyed. i'm prefectly fine with being gay and the whole gay issue, i just cant get get over the 'liking someone' issue. strange isnt it. Just dislike the stupid helplessness one would feel when in crush. this whole attraction thing is seriously irriating and movever, because it's notthe opp sex it's even more annoying then ever due to the fact that the chances of them being just as attracted to you - and therefore not replused - is more then halved.
See, if it's a guy, they would proby be honoured if they suspect that you are attracted to them (male ego) but if it's a straight girl, it's highly possible to be replusion and therefore one would look like a idiot to them. Anyway, i'll never tell cos it's a pride thing (they wield power when they know you like them and most of the time people abuse that power) and also it's a warped mindset of mine. i hate people, in general. i'll hate you before i know you and if you are ok then i'll go up the scale to 'netural' and only then slowly to 'friend' status, if you ever get there.
so how the fuck did these strangers jump the scale?! fucking annoying.
"What they don't see is the painful process of self-doubt, self-hatred, and alienation, and when you've come to terms with those yourself, realizing that you will never be "normal", that no matter where you go, you will never feel completely safe."
hm. topic have been in my mind for quite some time now. Really, i never felt 'self-doubt, self-hatred, and alienation' but rather, i feel very annoyed. i'm prefectly fine with being gay and the whole gay issue, i just cant get get over the 'liking someone' issue. strange isnt it. Just dislike the stupid helplessness one would feel when in crush. this whole attraction thing is seriously irriating and movever, because it's notthe opp sex it's even more annoying then ever due to the fact that the chances of them being just as attracted to you - and therefore not replused - is more then halved.
See, if it's a guy, they would proby be honoured if they suspect that you are attracted to them (male ego) but if it's a straight girl, it's highly possible to be replusion and therefore one would look like a idiot to them. Anyway, i'll never tell cos it's a pride thing (they wield power when they know you like them and most of the time people abuse that power) and also it's a warped mindset of mine. i hate people, in general. i'll hate you before i know you and if you are ok then i'll go up the scale to 'netural' and only then slowly to 'friend' status, if you ever get there.
so how the fuck did these strangers jump the scale?! fucking annoying.
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