FEAR.

if only i am born great. will i still have fear?

my spec grp is pissing me off. we are so slow and so very behind already. we are all competent people and not slackers unlike the other grps yet our progess or rather, the lack of, is very worrying indeed. Fuck. the other grp even had their cast lockdown and they are professional actors! our producer extremely miscasted. She's not up for the job!! she's not as on the ball as one would hope for a $10,000 production!! for god's sake, we have only 50 days more to shoot! and we have no location securement, no talents, not even a audtion comfirmed. no asking or looking or posting on forums for extra crew, no requesting or personal/ grp searchs for cast yet, NOTHING! just a 'almost finished script' and basic crew postions lock down. we are so very in dire and extremly alarming status and no one is doing anything to improve or salvage the situation. who am i to do what. i'm just the cinematograhper. this is bad. i need to come up with something soon. fuck oversteping boundaries. idiots.